New Years Resolution

I have a new new years resolution. i was going to post a blog earlier today about my resolution, but after tonight, that has all changed. Alot of stuff happened tonight. My friend got enganged (congrats Kabby), i got rather smished and i found out how really depressed i have been this last year. at the hands of someone else. this may be depressing for my second blog in my new home, but i have to get it out somehow. and cyber space seems like the place. my new new years resolution is to be happy and get my life back. yes, i split up with my long term bf tonight. mainly due to the fact that, with him, i wasnt happy anymore. there is only so much hurtful shit you can handle, right? i know the next few weeks are gonna be hard, but i need to let go and find the me that has been buried under so much crap, that i wouldnt recognise myself if i hit myself over the head with a sledge hammer. so, another relationship has ended and a new year has begun. time to start thinking about myself (selfish i know but, hey, im aloud to!!!) and have fun. so much fun it starts oozing from every pore. i have my cat tonight and my family tomorro, but i just have to stick it through and not give in.
Now that that is over, on to the good stuff. tonight (apart from the obvious) was pretty good. i shook my booty in all the right places and laughed hystericaly at nothing. I also hugged neumerous people at midnight (including one of my teachers - dont ask!) and made a complete ass of myself. usual new years stuff. I drank too much booze (although sobered up pretty quickly - due to above stuff) and smashed my first glass (by accident, but still kinda due to above stuff). all in all, it was a normal new years night. Nothing like welcoming the new year in a pathetic heap wraped around a loo! If it didnt end like that, it wouldnt really be new years. but now, its all over, 2005 and all its mistakes are behind me. its time to embrace 2006 with open - but drunken - arms. so, happy new year, "i will survive" and, till next time, goodbye cruel world!!!